Notes on Grief

I write because that is perhaps the only resort left to me now.

I write because my grief has become so big that my body and mind fail to carry it anymore.

I write to remember you, and I write so I don’t forget.

I write so you can live in my words if not in the physical world.

I write to give you wings, but I forget you have already flown away.

I write to give us some more time together, time we so preciously have lost.

You were and always will be a part of our family.

I read somewhere that when you lose a sibling you lose the past and the future. Those words rang true to me, and so I write letters to let you know how we are coping.

I write for us to have a few of these moments together.

I wrote about grief the other day, it felt harsh and almost too real.